Disappeared

I never actually realized how scary it was when someone disappears. The other day, one of the security guards at our school died. It’s weird because I didn’t register the fact that he wasn’t there in the morning to comment on how I was late for school again as I waltzed into the school in casual clothes (again). Then I found out later on while overhearing that he had died. Actually I didn’t want to hear it so I tuned out and continued reading my manga. From then on, the fact that he had died kept surfacing despite the fact that I was determined not to hear it. Really, I didn’t acknowledge it, or want to accept that fact until we had to go to our houses (like Harry Potter houses) where we had a moment of silence for Gary. Finally, I had to accept it, I could no longer hope that what I was hearing was just a rumor. As I somberly walked into DIM class passing numerous crying girls, I saw a room full of more sad faces and decided to put on a brave smile and pulled the curtains open. It’s impossible to look at a room full of sad people without being sad yourself so instead I stared outside remembering Gary. And imagining what it was going to be like without him. He just disappeared. He won’t be there to quiz me on bird calls before buzzing me into the school. He won’t be there to tell me that the pool key number is 35. He won’t be there to ask me why I was back at the school at 10pm. He won’t be there to hand me my lunch slip because alas, I have forgotten my swipe card again. He won’t be there joking around with Rob at the security desk. I won’t see him doing security walks. He won’t be there when I have to leave a package for my mom who will never end up picking it up. He won’t be there when I walk into the school through the front doors. He just won’t be there anymore. At least Andy (our asain security guard) could come back but Gary can’t. You know those times when you desperately want someone to break the silence because you just want to hear something happier than silence? I am ever thankful for Mr. Crippin who got us back to our normal selves. I wish I were strong enough to crack a joke while everyone was being emo. In any case, I think that Gary lived a happy life because he was a very gentleand kind 6-foot bald security guard. Please Rest In Peace Gary. We already miss you.

The other day, Daddy, Yellow and Green birdies got out of their cage. Fortunately Yellow and Green came back but Daddy birdie still hasn’t been found yet. Seeing as I haven’t found his dead carcass yet I’m going to stay hopeful and pray that he’s still out there alive and that he’ll come home soon. So if anyone sees an orange faced, green bodied lovebird near Lawrence Park Collegiate, please tell me because we all want him to come back home soon. Especially Mommy birdie.